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Monday, October 22, 2012

My thoughts on friends

This might be a loaded blog, so beware.

In my lifetime, I have had many friends.  In the last 10 years though, I feel like I've lost them all.  All of them going all the way back from elementary school until now.  Not that I have met MANY new people that I feel close enough with to actually call them a friend...and facebook doesn't count, I'm talking about REAL LIFE relationships, with people that I can interact with, go to the movies with, or hang out with on a weeknight just talking about life.  All this time, I've wondered what went wrong. 

The other day, I figured it out. 

I happened. 

I am the common denominator.  I am not a person that people want to be close to. 

Except for a few cases, I can't think of what I did to lose all of those people.  Life happens (marriages & babies in my case), people move, you lose contact.  But even for the ones I really tried to stay in contact with, I find that I don't even talk (e-mail, text or in person) with them anymore.  There are some that I tried harder with, but I feel like those were just a one-way street--me trying, they just entertained me, didn't really care if we were friends or not. 

You've heard the phrase "not good boyfriend/girlfriend/marriage material"?  Maybe I'm not good "friend material".  I know a time or 2 (probably a lot more) my mouth has gotten me in trouble.  I'm not always good about thinking before I speak.  Lets face it though, who hasn't struggled with this?  I know I have been hurt by words that other people have said, either to my face or behind my back.  Something I have learned the hard way to remember, no matter who you're talking to, what you're saying ALWAYS gets back to the person you say it about.  Guess that's why our parents taught us not to gossip...


Monday, September 10, 2012

More on the dogs

I wrote about this last night,but on Saturday Darby attacked Daisy.  Daisy is doing fine, a little sore, obviously, but fine.  When I reach into her little cat-house (because it's made for a cat, but we got it for her because she LOVES to hide), she growls at me, so I know she's ok :)  Our neighbor was very helpful, she gave us some medicine to give to her.  It's just baby Tylenol, but we didn't have any pills, only liquid.  She also suggested the liquid band-aid, which has helped so much...

...but we are undecided on whether or not we are going to keep Darby.  I can imagine that she would do this again.  It's happened twice-the 1st time she was protecting Livi, and this time I'm not sure what happened since I wasn't there, but I don't think she would do it unless she was protecting something or someone.  She is a very protective dog and will do what all animals do I guess.  I would hate to give her away and have this happen to someone else's dog, or worse, have her bite a person. 

I know she doesn't understand that Daisy really isn't going to hurt anyone.  Sure she may bite someone, but honestly?  It feels like getting stuck with a needle, she would have to clamp down hard to break skin.  And Daisy is getting older, so she's grumpier than she used to be and doesn't like to be messed with.  I know having kids has ruined the poor dog...lol.  She used to love kids, but now that she gets tortured by Livi (not too much since she does bite at her), she doesn't want anything to do with kids! 

I don't know what to do...a year ago I would have loved to get rid of Darby.  Now I don't know.  I look at her and think "you're a dumb dog, but you only want to protect, not harm".  And as mean as I can be to her sometimes (she deserves most of it...) she loves me.  She sits under my feet while I sit at the table, she follows me everywhere and doesn't like to be left in the house if I'm going outside.  She really is a good dog.  She loves to play with other dogs and she will let the kids pull her hair, pull her tail and be all out mean to her, and she just lets them.  She's very tolerant. 

I know what you're thinking now..."get rid of Daisy".  Nope, not gonna happen.  She's our "baby".  We got Daisy not 2 months after we got married.  We got her because I needed something to love on like a child (I know that sounds ridiculous, but it's true).  She has been there with us during the death of my mom and Jason's grandma (both who loved Daisy-Grandma Schneider would hold her and they would fall asleep together on the couch), she's gone through 2 moves, 2 pregnancies, (the 2nd move and birth of Livi I thought would be the death of her, she was so stressed out...she even gained 1/2 a lb, making her 4 lbs, lol).  Obviously we are at a cross-roads, at least I am.  For now we are keeping the dogs apart.  I think Darby misses Daisy, but I'm not going to risk her hurting her again. 

I realize that no one probably even cares, but I had to get my thoughts out on to "paper". 
Sunday, September 9, 2012

Party and puncture wound...

Yesterday was Jackson's 1st birthday and the kids joint party. I wasn't stressed until it came to icing the cupcakes...I will forever wonder why Wilton gel coloring doesn't mix with my homemade icing. I gave up and used canned. No one seemed to care :) The party went well, lots of fun, eating, laughing (mostly at Jackson and his messy cake-face!).

The kids opened their presents, thanked everyone and people started leaving. It was almost 9 at this point, and if Jackson doesn't go to bed by then, or isn't preoccupied with something else, he gets cranky. So I took him up to bed. As I sat down to nurse him, all of a sudden I hear all of this yelping and growling...

When I came downstairs, I saw my dad and father in law trying to get Daisy out of Darby's mouth. For reasons we will never know, Darby attacked Daisy. Daisy had been upstairs during the party, because she doesn't like lots of people. We decided that since most everyone was gone it was ok to bring her down. I missed everything, so I'm not exactly sure what happened, but I THINK she jumped down off of the couch to head to the kitchen and Darby must have thought that she was going to attack a kid, so she felt like she had to protect. Darby was also probably stressed out from all of the people. Whatever her reason, if we hadn't intervened, she would have killed Daisy.

If I wasn't a humane person, I would have killed Darby. But I am. Daisy is ok, after talking to our neighbor we got some liquid band-aid to close up her puncture wound.

I immediately wanted to get rid of Darby, but we are going to wait and see what happens. This isn't the first time this has happened, but this was much worse. I realize my blog is more about the dog thing than the kids party, but there really isn't much to say about the party, pictures will be coming :)
Monday, August 6, 2012

11 months

I always see blog posts where mom's do a montly post about what their kids have done in the past month, and I like the idea.  I'm going to start it now...I know I'm a little late :)

Jackson is on the move!  It took him a while, but he's finally crawling.  I may or may not have posted about this before, but I was worried about his mobility, because he didn't start rolling over until he was about 8 months old.  Once he did start though, he went from belly-back/back-belly all within the same weekend.  He also started Army-crawling the same weekend.  It took him another month or so to start pulling himself up, but when we were at the beach he started that.  Then within a couple of weeks he was crawling.  Now he run-crawls (funniest thing to watch!) and he pulls up on EVERYTHING, I think he'll be walking very soon.  Livi walked when she was a little over 11 months, so we'll see if Jackson does the same.  He also gave up pureed food and now only eats small bits of whatever we eat.  He LOVES baby goldfish crackers, pizza and hamburger helper :)  He's a fruit eater, just like sissy, watermelon is probably his favorite.  I just introduced grapes and he seems to like them.  He looked like a little chipmunk this morning with 2-3 stuffed in his mouth :)  When I weighed him last he was a little over 23 lbs and was 30 inches tall!  He now has 6 teeth, 3 fully in on the top with 1 almost there, and 2 on the bottom.  He doesn't like it when I forget to put his necklace on in the morning, and neither do I...it means he will be a cranky butt!  So we don't forget anymore!  He loves splashing in water, whether it's in the pool or the tub, so we've spent a lot of time in the pool.  I love this stage, his personality is really showing.  He says "mamam" "dada" "no" and "diga-diga"...not sure what that last one is, but its hilarious. 

I find it very hard to believe that on Wednesday, Jackson will be 11 months old...I'm also finding that when I think about him being 1, I don't get as weepy as I did with Livi.  After she was born, I found myself crying all the time that she had turned 1 week, then 2, then 2 months, and so on...maybe it's because he's #2?  I don't know, I'm kinda glad though, because I already cry enough as it is! 

I also have 1 month to finish planning the birthday party!  I think for the next few years we'll be able to get away with a combined party, so while I can save money on it I will.  This year I'm doing a Mickey/Minnie theme.  I decided against all the decor with their faces though...Minnie now is wearing pink, and I like her with red.  So after seeing a few things on pinterest in black and red, with other Mickey or Minnie things thrown in, that's what I'm doing.  I found that I spent WAY less on plain colored decor than I would have if I had gotten anything else.  It's so much easier that way!  I'm excited for a few of the projects I want to do for the party too, but I'll share about those later. 

Livi is almost 35 months old...that's even crazier.  Do I really have an almost 3 year old?!  She continues to test my patience by the minute :)  She loves helping Jackson with things, and she loves picking on him.  What big sister doesn't?  Her newest favorite thing is Doc McStuffins.  She knows the songs and sings them all day long.  I hear her in her room giving "check ups" to her animals and dolls, it makes me laugh every time!  I decided that she would be Doc for Halloween...all I have to do is make a white lab coat.  I'm having trouble finding a pattern though.  I'm also have the hardest time finding the doctor's bag.  I have been kicking myself all week.  Last Tuesday I found it, but thought "I'll wait, they'll still have it".  The next day I went back and they were all gone.  Ever since, NO ONE has it in stock.  Toys R Us has it on their website, but it's not available for shipping.  Target doesn't even have it on their site (at least they didn't the last time I checked).  I think the only place I'm going to be able to get it from is the Disney Store, but I'll probably be better off just ordering it online.  I hate to pay for shipping when I could get it from them, but the closest one is at Polaris, and that's about 30 minutes away.  Anyway, I digress...um, yeah, Livi loves drawing outside with her chalk, on everything!  She loves to run around in circles while Darby (the dog) chases her.  She also loves to swing.  We have walked to our park a lot recently and she never wants to go down the slides, only wants to swing. 

Well, this was longer than I expected it to be, so I'm out.  Time to start dinner!
Sunday, July 1, 2012

Our vacation

Our beach vacation went by way too fast, as most things you look forward to do.  We left home on the 22nd around 12:30, which was about 30 minutes before we said we wanted to leave, so we were happy about that!  Jackson was asleep about 2 minutes after I buckled him in!  He didn't sleep for very long though, but he was a happy camper 99% of the ride.  We stopped in Winston-Salem, NC for the night, and after our trip home last night, I'm glad we stopped on the way down.  The hotel was, eh, ok.  It was cheap, and the room was nice enough, but the area was a little rough.  We survived though :)  The night went about as well as I was expecting it to.  Jackson slept better than he did the last time we were in a hotel, but by the time the morning rolled around we were all in the king size bed!

We left for Myrtle around 10:30, after getting breakfast at McD's (the continental breakfast at the hotel ended at 9, but no one told us that...) and stopping at Wal-Mart for a few things.  We thought we would get to the condo/resort at about 3 or 3:30, but it was almost 5 by the time we arrived thanks to heavy traffic for the last 40 miles.  That last 40 took about 1.5-2 hours to get through...ugh.

We finally arrived and got everything to the room and went to check out the beach and the rest of the resort.  Livi loved the sand, and it would probably be her favorite thing of the week.  We went to dinner at a seafood buffet, but I was a little disappointed because, for a SEAFOOD buffet, there weren't many seafood options.  We had to get groceries for the week, we had decided to eat breakfast and lunch in the condo and then go out for dinner each night.  We spent about as much for 1 week as we do for 2-3 weeks here at home...stupid food tax in South Carolina.  That was a whopping 9%!  Then there was another tax for something else, it was absurd.

Sunday morning we FINALLY got to go to the beach (to swim, play and soak up the sun!).  Livi hated the ocean.  I knew she would.  Besides bath water, she's not really a huge fan of water.  I don't know why.  She even wouldn't go swimming in the pool, except for the baby pool, which was less than 1 foot deep, so she could stand in it and be ok.  Jackson, on the other hand, loved the water!  And the sand, especially in his mouth :)  He couldn't take being in the sun for very long though, so we didn't stay at the beach for more than 2 hours.  I was disappointed about that :(  I was looking forward to being at the beach or pool for the majority of the day...yeah, that didn't happen.  Definitely a different experience than any other beach vacation I've taken.  But I digress.

All in all, it was a great trip.  Monday we celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary, even though we had already celebrated a few weeks before.  Jackson slept beautifully the entire week!!  I didn't think he would do that well in a pack n play, but I had 2 soft blankets under the sheet, so it made it nice and cushy for him :)  We had gotten an air mattress/sleeping bag thing for Livi, and she slept in it beautifully all week also!  We never had either of them in bed with us all week.  The bed sucked though, but I was just happy to have somewhere to sleep. 

The road home was a bit difficult.  The owner of the place we rented told us about a different route to take to avoid all the traffic we came in with.  It was ok for a while, but we eventually got stuck in traffic, and it would be the 1st of about 6 or 7 times that day.  I think we stopped more in 1 day than we did in the 2 days going down.  Jackson needed to eat, or Livi had an accident (this may sound dumb, but we put a diaper on her for the trips because she is constantly going to the bathroom, so we figure we wouldn't have to stop as much that way.  Well she did #2 and lets just say it was gross.  So we had to stop to clean that up).  Or we had to stop for gas/food/money from the ATM for the tolls because we forgot...what should have taken 10 or 11 hours took 14.5.  We needed gas around 9:30 and we were in West Virginia.  Apparently from the storms, they had no power, which somehow meant that the gas stations were all out of gas?  And the stupid thing was that there were mile long lines at the pumps.  Not saying anything about people from West Virginia (since my SIL is from there...), but that's just dumb!  There was a station that had a gas truck trying to fill up the tanks, but he couldn't get in because of all the cars!

Our saving grace was good old Gallipolis, Ohio.  Never, ever thought I would be thankful for Gallipolis after last year, but they had gas and we were able to fill up, get some snacks and I could feed Jackson.  We finally made it home at 1:30.  LONGEST trip of my life.  Livi, at one point, woke up around Circleville screaming because she was tired of being in the car.  That made the long trip even longer, but she wore herself out and went back to sleep.  I think we learned our lesson and will never drive all day with kids this age.

Well, I didn't expect to write that much, but I did.  Oh well :)  Now to unpack (yuck) and sleep.  Maybe I'll leave the unpacking for tomorrow...yeah, that sounds like a good idea!
Saturday, June 2, 2012

I love garage sales!

I have gone to garage sales for 3 out of the last 5 Saturday's...I love it!  And I plan to go to 3 community sales next weekend!  I don't always find something, but it's so much fun to look at other people's junk, lol.  So far this summer I have found:
-clothes for both kids
-a dresser for Jackson's room (which I have yet to take a pic of and start my project on)
-some toys
-a new diaper genie (I donated our old one to the church nursery, and took what was in the nursery to the MRC)
-a huge OSU chair for Jackson's room
-curtain tie-backs
-books
-ice trays (for making baby food)
-a magnetic chore chart (excited to start this with Livi...she probably won't be as excited!)
-a high chair to use on our patio (I got tired of dragging our good one out the door every time we ate outside, so this one is perfect!)

I'm probably missing a few things, but out of all of that, I bet I haven't spent more than $40!  The tie-backs, ice trays and chore chart I got for free :)

I'm REALLY looking for a kids picnic table for our patio.  I saw 2 today, but 1 was already sold, and the other wasn't exactly for sale...she was using it to display clothes, and was going to throw it out after her sale, because it was really beat up.  Oh well, there's always next weekend!

I remember my mom loving going to garage sales, I guess she passed that on to me!  Just wish she was here to go with me to all of these sales!

3 weeks from today we'll be 1/2 way (or almost there, hopefully!) to the beach!  In my last post I said I needed to get started on my packing lists...I've really been slacking!  I have started, but I've been lazy.  Today might be a good day to do that, Jason is golfing and the kids are fast asleep!

I'll end this post with a question...What's your favorite thing about summer?  Mine is garage sales and swimming :)
Wednesday, May 23, 2012

A month til the beach!

I am so excited, probably more excited than I've been about anything in over 8 months (when Jackson was born). We are going to be at the beach a month from today! I can't believe how fast time has gone since we put down our deposit, which was over 2 months ago. I thought it was a mistake to tell Livi that we were going, because at first she asked about it EVERY day, but now she just occasionally says "mama, we're going to the beach in June!". And she tells everyone we see that we're going to the beach in June, lol. So now I need to start putting together my packing list. You probably think that I am crazy for starting this early, and I can't believe I've waited this long to start. Normally, for anything big like this, I start my lists way in advance. Like last year, for Livi's 2nd birthday, I started planning in March, and that was 6 months away from her birthday! Of course, Jackson would be born a week and 2 days before her party, so it was good that I planned ahead. The great thing about packing for the beach, is that I already know which clothes (for the most part) that I'm taking for the kids and myself. Swimwear was purchased almost immediately after we put down our deposit, and I've been scouring the 2nd hand stores for beach appropriate clothing for the kids. They probably won't wear everything I take...on second thought, Jackson probably will, since his spitting up is still out of control. I hope to be at the beach or pool the majority of the time, so maybe that will cut down on his dirty clothing? Oh, and I'm excited about this thing I just got from my Thirty One party! It was the hostess exclusive, and it's a huge bag, with 3 smaller bags inside, and I'm pretty sure I could pack everything for the kids in it! Our condo looks nice. The people that own it have a 2 year old, so there are already all kinds of pool/beach toys, so we don't have to take our own, which will be great to save space in the car. They also have an umbrella and chairs for the beach, so we don't have to rent one, or burn to death! So anyway, I'm excited to go. In July it will be 6 years since we went to the beach, so we are long overdue!
Friday, April 20, 2012

1 year

This morning I posted my status on facebook as "what a difference a year makes".  Last year on this day, myself along with my 4 co-workers were told that our branch of Ohio Valley Bank would be closing, effective the end of November.  I feel like this is the only subject I ever blog on, lol.  I knew it was coming, the announcement.  I was happy, but I didn't want to show it, because I knew the others were sad.  I knew this was my chance to stay home with my kids (at the time I was 20 some weeks pregnant with Jackson).  At first we weren't sure if I would be able to stay at home, but with lots of prayer and faith in our Lord, I am here, staying home with my children!  A lot of people asked me what I would do when the bank closed, and I always said "I'm hoping to be able to stay at home", and not a single one of them told me "you shouldn't do that" or "that's the wrong choice".  Every answer was "good for you!" or "that's where you need to be, this is the age you should be at home with them".  I look back, not knowing if it would work out, or if God would want me to find a job outside of the home, and I'm SO thankful that He saw fit to allow me to stay home.  I know it's not for everyone, and it might not be financially the right decision for everyone, and I'm not going to lie and say it wasn't hard at first (and we still have our moments), but I am happy.  The other day a friend asked me if I was going to go back to work, because at first I thought I would stay home for a few months and then maybe go back.  I told her no! 

There are moments when I miss working.  Maybe not working, but I miss where I worked.  I miss the people and I miss the work.  I even miss SOME of the customers, the ones I liked :)  But I wouldn't trade my time at home for anything. 

Hopefully this will be my last blog on this subject ;)  I don't really have much else to talk about I guess.  Most of what I have to say I post on facebook.  I will just have to be creative on my blog subjects!

One last thing...if you haven't already voted for Jackson's picture, do it before 6pm today!!  :)
Wednesday, March 7, 2012

been a long time...

It's been a little over 3 months since my last post. I think because staying at home keeps me busier than being at a part time job did. Weird, huh? Well, the last 3+ months have been great. I love staying at home with my babies, even though there are days I would love to hang Livi on the roof :) She and I definitely go 'round and 'round, but that must be because we are so much alike. I guess. She's a great helper though. She loves to help me with Jackson, or putting clothes in the washer and dryer. She can be really bad at times with being rough with Jackson, but unless she pinches him, he doesn't seem to mind (probably because he knows in a year or so he'll be the one beating up on her :)). Jackson is doing really well. He's 6 months old tomorrow, hard to believe its already half of his first year! It's funny to see how different he and Livi are, and yet they are alike in so many ways too. For instance, by now Livi had 2 teeth. Jackson seems to be teething, but no evidence of any teeth yet. Livi was also rolling over and sitting up on her own by now too. Jackson likes to roll to his side, but that's where he stays. And for sitting up, he's getting better, but after a few minutes he falls over :) In the ways they are alike, their weight and height are pretty much parallel to one another. We go tomorrow for his check up, but I already know he's close to 19lbs. We've all been sick this last week, or maybe more. It started with Jason, then Livi got sick with a double ear infection. Jackson started coughing, and has an ear infection and bronchiolitis. Poor baby has to have breathing treatments 3 times a day. He doesn't like the mask, but he looks so cute! I got it last and I haven't felt this bad in years. Nothing I can really do though, without possibly drying up Jackson's source of nourishment, so I'm suffering through it. We've been talking a lot about going to the beach this year, and we have booked a place in Myrtle Beach! I am really excited, we haven't been on vacation in almost 6 years! Livi is pretty excited too, because every day she talks about the beach, and asks when we are going. That was our bad for telling her about it in the first place. So we decided to stop talking about it, hopefully she forgets, because we have about 3 1/2 months before we go! In case you are wondering, I do miss working sometimes. I miss having conversations with other adults. Jason is working on his masters right now, so he's either working on school work or at class, so I don't see him a lot. Tuesday's and Wednesday's are his class days so I'm with the kids for a lot of hours by myself. I'm not complaining because I'm the one who chose to stay home. Still, it would be nice to have things to do. I am just not very good at finding things around town, I know there are library times, but I'm not sure Livi would sit still. Hopefully with spring and summer around the corner I'll be able to get out more. I'm thinking about a Zoombezi Bay pass this year, but I need to find another mom to go with. As I finish typing Jackson is screaming, so it must be time for a nap. If anyone has any suggestions for free and cheap things to do around town, please let me know! I know people gave me some a while ago, but I don't remember :)